we are run by the machines

i havent done this in so long.
okay. well. im sick... really really sick. like
101.6-5 right now.
i feel miserable. shiiiiiit.
i want a hug.
and i want some really bitter dark chocolate.
and i want to change the date to go to harvard SQ.
but i dunno if Jill remembered to do that. oh well. i dont wanna be a trouble.
love<3
bye

1. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.


2. On a scale of 1-10, what number would you rate me of my looks?


3. How long have you known me?


4. When and how did we first meet?


5. What was your first impression?


6. Do you still think that way about me now?


7. What do you think my weakness is?


8. Do I talk a lot?


9. Am I out-going?


10. Am I a positive or negative person?


11. What reminds you of me?


12. If you could give me anything what would it be?


13. How well do you know me?


14. When's the last time you saw me?


15. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?


16. Do you think I could kill someone?


17. Describe me in one word.


18. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger, weaker, or staying the same?


19. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?


20. Are you going to repost this and see what I say about you?


21. What song [ if any ] reminds you of me?


22. If you could change one thing about me, what would it be?


23. Do you consider me a good friend?


24. What makes me, me?


25. Have you EVER had a crush on me?


26. Have you EVER dated me?


27. Have you ever spent the night at my house?


28. Whats the craziest thing you've done with me?


29. Physically, whats my BEST feature?


30. On a scale 1-10, what would u rate my PERSONALITY?


31. Mentally whats my best feature?


32. Would you ever or Did you ever want to go out with me?


33. What is my middle name?


34. Who's my best friend?


35. What's the FUNNIEST thing you and me have ever done?


36. How long will YOU and ME be friends

RULES: Anwer truthfully, and you have to anwser seriously. So says the rule makers.

PART ONE:

Have you ever:

[x] chewed a gum wrapper
[x] licked a dusty object
[] wanted to break a bone
[x] seriously thought of killing someone
[xmaybe] questioned your sexual preferance
[] done anything with the same sex that was outside of a T or D game
[x] done anything with the opposite sex that was outside of a T or D game
[x] sexually attracted to females
[] Sexually attracted to males
[x] smoked
[x] done a drug
[x] cut your own hair
[x] make yourself puke
[x] starved yourself
[x] Been seen naked by someone outside of family
[x] Swimming in winter
[] Wanted to be a fire fighter
[] Sleep naked
[] Masturbate frequently
[] Fantasize when masturbating
[] about the person you got the quiz from
[x] Dominate(sometimes)
[] Submisive
[] Had intimate feelings for a cartoon character
[] Taken out your anger physically on someone
[x] Ever wanted to hurt a baby
[] Sexual with an animal
[x] Eaten paper
[] Get off on the idea of rape
[] Been locked up in a jail
[x] been locked up in a hospital
[] wanted to be a ballarina
[] had the desire to cross-dress
[x] put on makeup
[x] not drank alchohol this month
[x] Ate soap
[] Been in actual, strong love; not the teenage shit.
[] Humped someone
[x] Not eatten an entire box of oreos
[x] Like Jazz
[] Like Sushi
[x] Hurt someone intentionally
[] foot fetish
[x] hurt yourself intentionally
[x] fell out of a tree
[] know HTML
[] eaten something rotten
[x] Climbed a billboard
[x] Burned up some money
[] have been in a mosh pit
[xxxxxxxxxx] are really, really painfully missing someone right now, so much your insides feel all hurty.
[] Hate feet
[] Hate knees
[] have a real thing against acne




PART TWO:

Last person/last thing:

You made out with- Jill

Touched your nose- uhhh...Emily

You hugged- Ummm.. Emma

You bit- probably Jill

You shared food with- i forget..

shared a drink with- i forget.......

Drug you did- ask me and ill tell you

Touched your belly-button- i dunno

Thing you licked- Mollys stampy ink stampy thing.

Person you wanted to beat up- Sam

Song you sang- Make tonight-Emanuel

Thing you smelled- special

Wanted to kiss- Jill



PART THREE:

The Leftovers.

Favorite sims expantion pack- its all good

Pro or Con; World of Warcraft- i dunno

Friend you wish you were more like- uhhhh...i dont know?

How many crushes do you have right now, that the crush-ees dont know about- i dont have any crushes

Like gold stickers- sure!

Favorite Smell- i dunno...hmm.....ill think about it

Last "wound" you received- Molly bit me...i bled...it sucked.

You are:
[] short, under 5'4
[] 5'4-5'6
[x] 5'5-5'7
[] 5'8-6'0
[]6'0 or taller

naturally:
[] blonde
[] red
[] dirty blond/brownish
[] brown
[x] black


[] blue-eyed
[] brown-eyed
[] green-eyed
[] hazel-eyed
[] they change colors
[x] dark dark brown-eyed

[x] glasses
[] contacts
[] both
[] neither


[] short hair
[x] medium hair
[x] long hair



some things you've done:
[x] hiking
[x] kayaking
[x] rafting
[] water skiing
[x]camping
[x] horseback riding
[x] body/surfing and skim/wake boarding
[x] snowboarding
[x]skiing
[x]dancing (ballet, tap, jazz, etc.)
[x] skateboarding
[] cheerleading
[] lacrosse
[] street hockey
[] gymnastics
[x] martial arts
[] baton twirling
[x] swimming

your personality is sometimes:
[x] talkative
[x] shy
[x] funny
[x] serious
[x] laid back
[x] strict-(only when needed)
[x] hyper
[x] weird
[] ditzy
[x] sarcastic
[x] slow

pets you have had:
[]cat
[] dog
[] lizard
[] ferret
[x] bunny
[x] fish
[] horse
[] bird
[] frog
[] hermit crab
[] turtle
[x] hamster
[] snake
[] gerbil
[] guinea pig
[] tarantula
[] none

clothing brands you like:
[] delia's
[] american eagle
[] hollister
[] abercrombie & fitch
[] express
[] wet seal
[] forever 21
[] pac sun
[] gap
[] ecko co.
[] banana republic
[] aeropostable
[] lucky
[] champs
[] salvation army/goodwill
[] old navy
[] filenes
[] only name brand
[] victoria's secret
[] whatever is at the thirft store
[] eddie bauer
[x] hot topic
[] anything
[] alloy
[x] if i like it, i'll wear it no matter what it is

shoe brands:
[] flip-flops
[] nike
[] adidas
[] reebok
[] puma
[] uggs
[x] etnies
[] reefs
[] converse
[] k-swiss
[x] adio
[] dc
[]steve madden
[] Vans
[x] if i like something alot, i'll buy it
[] new balance
[] lei
[] payless
[] dvs
[] jordans

your confessions:
[] i'm afraid of the quiet
[x] i'm really ticklish(only when i want to be though)
[] i'm afraid of the dark...alone
[] i've collected comic books
[x] i shut others out when i'm mad
[] i open up easily to others
[x] i read the newspaper comics(dude of course. i love em)(only on the weekends or when i dotn have anything to do though)
[] i love disney movies
[x] i'm a sucker for eyes
[x] i'm a sucker for sweet talkers sometimes
[] i don't kill bugs
[x] i have x's in my screen name
[] i bake well
[] i have worn pajamas to class
[x] i am guilty of TyPiNg LiKe tHiS (not anymore as much. only when im being sarcastic)
[xxxxxxxxxx] i am self-conscious
[meh] i love to laugh
[] i drink alcohol in moderation!!
[.] i smoke cigarettes
[] i can't swallow pills
[] i bite my nails
[] i play computer games when i'm bored
[] gotten lost in the city
[] gone out in public in your pajamas
[x] made out in an elevator
[] been skydiving--
[] been bungee jumping--
[x] bitten someone
[x] dressed up like the opposite sex
[] egged a house/car(no but i have to a person:D)
[x] smashed into a car
[] been fired
[x] been skinny dipping

have you ever:
[] danced in the rain(does kissed count?)
[x] seen a star
[] proposed to anyone
[x] gotten stitches
[x] eaten sushi
[x] gotten the chicken pox
[x] ridden in a taxi
[x] been on a cruise (i think a while ago)
[x] driven over 400 miles in one day(maybe)
[x] been on a plane by yourself
[x] had surgery(a weird kind though.)(i guess its not surgery then)
[x] seen a movie more than three times in the theater
[x] been on stage
[x] gotten a black eye
[x] memorized all the dialogue in a movie
[x] watched an entire baseball game

do you like:
[x] old movies
[x] musicals
[x] blasting music in your car
[x] foreign foods
[x] christmas time
[x] donuts
[x] animals
[x] coffee
[x] tea
[x]fuck you?

i went and spent the weekend over at Jillys this week. it was wicked cool. alot of people were there. of course the family, Jill, Luke, Titus, uhhh...,.,.,..Micah? ok . Isiah, Max, Julia. Lisa and David.
Ok. SO. then there were like uhhh. Me Jay Erf Sam, Molly Victoria Charlotte Anna Caroline Emily.....
yeah. it was wicked fun. we all stayed up and didnt sleep at all. well there was like 2 or 3 people who did later on in the day. Sam and Jay slept. Anna slept through the night around sometime after 3. yeahh. it was wicked cool. I hungout with the brothers of Jill and helped Micah in his video games. that was pretty ASIAN of me.yeah. overall i hungout there didnt sleep. then went home. talked on the phone. went out to a move came back talkjed more. went to sleep for a bit. got up and it was sunday. yaeh pretty wicked.
im out for now
<3
~Wyn~

im wicked tired. i got back from VT today. it was pretty lame there. i should hangout with people. who i like. people who dont hate me. and people who i dont hate. i dunno. im confused. im on the phone with Izzy and shes playing music into the phone so it sounds wicked bad. but yeah. i love it anyway. its pretty hot
i miss people alot. i havent seen you since the show. i miss you. but im gonna see you soon. i think. yeah. i am. if you still want me to come over. we need to talk more about what should go down.
anyway. im out for now.

I'd burn alive to keep you warm when you're alone. Shiver under blankets in
the basement where our secrets sleep. You pour the liquor on the staircase,
girl. Pass the flask and close your eyes. Are you grieving for what we've
become? Are you running from that room? We set the evidence on fire. We
light cigarettes and chase out old regrets. Are you grieving for tonight? I
smell the sulfur on her skin (breathe in). Yesterday will be the end of you
and I. Yesterday will be the end of shoulders where we rest our head. Now we
grieve for tomorrow goes on without us. Now we breathe for no one else.
Everything is broken slowly sinking under waiting for tomorrow waiting for
the grave to tell me that she's lonely. Open up and hold me slowly feel my
body becoming one and only. Death is just an excuse to forget you. Now we
run from ourselves. Hope lies not in the mirror. I'll burn alive for you.
i love you<3
~Wyn~

what is this valintines day.more like a lame way to give out alot of lame things to ppl you dont even like.unless you do like someone.then its giving out alot of lame things minus one.and giving that special someone somthing else that might not be as lame.i like the word lame.i really do.i dont like v-day though.i dunno why.it just hasnt been that appealing.maybe its cuz im so god damn emo. gawd.im so fuckin emo i dont get it.noone gets it.noone gets me im just that disturbed.god.im so emo.i love those bands and the songs like suffocate me dry. rip apart my soul and stab my heart because i love you.and of course stabby rip stab stab.i think i should go play guitar have the guitar distorted and drop tune to D and play only three strings open all the time sometimes muted sometimes not.like so it sounds like its okay but it really takes no talent.maybe a little just to get it into dropped D tuning butnot enough skill to make anyone raise an eyebrow.i think that i should cut off my hair so i only have a little so i look like im from sum41.dont laugh this is serious

ok so. the coffee house was pretty bad. i messed up alot in both times.
i saw people there, punched someone in the face. punched myself a bunch. yeah it was a normal weekend basically but with music and shit. ok. im gonna go on my emo rant right now.

ok so first of all. me Victoria and Anna were eating chips and saalllsaaaa. so i went to dip one of my chippy friends. so did Victoria. she broke my chip. i yelped sorta. well it was more of a oh my god you broke my chip. then i whined and they laughed at me. i dont get why people laugh at me so much. i dont get anything why do people hate me? am i just that lame? no onre appriciates me for who i am. so anyway THEN i got SALSA ALL OVER MY EYEBROW. THEY LAUGHED...AGAIN! so then uhhh i forget what happened. and then we went upstairs to her room. i was gonna lie down on the bed and then they both just sat down before i could. i was so hurt iu dnt get it why does everyone hate me i dont get my life. i think i should just die god. i hate myself. i dont have any friends. noone like me. gawd. then i got pushed off the bed and stuff. i hit my head ALOT ion the ground and wall alot. i think that i should just get out of here. i dont know diary sometimes i think your the only one who gets me. your the best.

woo. im on the phone right now.today was alright. not much happened. last night i was over at kKennys and Braxtons and yah. all over the place.
it was cool though. i ate so much peanut butter that night.
yeah
this is so weird. im wicked tired. tomorrow im off to boston with Braxton and some people. its gonna be cool i guess. im just worried that they will like. not pay attention to me
and leave me. i have a phobia of being left alone. its kinda weird. whatever.
this sucks.
im out

<3always

Opening my media library...

How many songs: 2756 for now. used to be alot more

Sort by song title:
First Song: '97 bonnie and clyde-eminem
Last Song: zombies are good for your health-poison the well

Sort them for Time:
Shortest Song: k-rock id#2 - kid rock 0:05
Longest Song: Raw- eddie murphy- one hour and twenty minutes

Sort by artist:
First Artist: 2 PAC featuring dr dre and roger troutman- CALIFORNIA LOOOOVE. YES
Last Artist: zao-parade chaos

Sort by album:
First Album: and the circus leaves town- kyuss
First song that comes up on Shuffle: (Just Once)
the shooting star that destroyed us all- a static lulaby

Search..
"sex", how many songs come up? 9
"death", how many songs come up? 37(im emo)
"love", how many songs come up? 71
"you", how many songs come up? 243

ok i took a test and these are my results.

Disorder	Rating
Paranoid Disorder:	High
Schizoid Disorder:	Moderate
Schizotypal Disorder:	Very High
Antisocial Disorder:	Moderate
Borderline Disorder:	Very High
Histrionic Disorder:	Moderate
Narcissistic Disorder:	Low
Avoidant Disorder:	High
Dependent Disorder:	Very High
Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder:	High
-- Personality Disorder Test - Take It! -- -- Personality Disorders --

i dont know what else to write. i think i should just let go. take a load off. yeah.. andway im on the phone with Jilly right now. shes kinda freaking out cuz someone looked at her profile. and his friends also. its all set though. i think im gonna go back to taking cool quizzes with Jilly. peace out.
<3always.

i dunno whats goin on in my life now.
im havin a hard time dealin with ignorant pricks all the time, but most people are cool. just a few that arent. everyone seems to be having troubles with the opposite sex. boyfriend/girlfriend problems or just plain friend problems.
i dont know what all the fuss is about. that happened to me like a year ago. still is.
i dont thionk it was that big of a deal at the time.
hmmm thats strange.
oh so strange.
fucking hell.
<3 always

i dont know if its worth talking about my life.
everyones treating me like shit. cept for like.....this many
*hold up three fingers*



<3always

~Wyn~

ok this week was cool.
on wednesday i went over to Ethans and slept over that was pretty cool. then thursday i came home. friday i went over to Braxtons house and played music for a while. after that i went to Lindsays house around 10ish and hungout. Emma and Molly were there. that was pretty cool. then the next morning my mom came a picked me up and i went out to get Ieshas present. then i went to her party and then came home.



i went over to Lindsays before i slept over this week but i forget what day....
oh well.
yeah thats all.

<3always
~Wyn~

AH ok moms yelling at me to go to bed cuz i have to gteup early tomorrow.
im updating for my Jilly. she wants to know my life>_< its cool. im glad i have someone who cares about me truly.
ok so today was pretty cool. i went overt to Ethans yesturday and slept over. it was pretty chill. we had some fun watched southpark mostly. then went to sleep around 3 ish and yeah
then i gotup the next mrning half because i was up and half cuz Kathi txted me. it wa pretty fun. then i annoyed the shit outta Ethan telling him to get up and playing little video clips of Mike that were on my phone really loud right in his ear. anyeay. then we went down and i sharpened my knife.; wathced southpark and yeah
then i had to go cuz he had work.
this VacATION sucked pretty much for me
it was really boring cept for when i went over to friend houses.
yeah and so now its now.
i have to get Iesha a present for her birthday but she hasnt told me what to gt.
so i have no idea what to get her. its gonna be a hard thing to do. you know that?
yeah anyway. i think its about time to head off cuz moms coming downstairs


<3love you always<3


~Wyn~

OK so yesturday i went to the mall with Izzy and Michele. i dunno how to spell her name. BUT when i was there I SAW KATHI IT WAS SO MUCH FUN.
i hadnt seen her for a long time. it was awsome.
then later that night i was like. gonna go to sleep. and then Molly called me. so we talked for a bit and it was fun. Emma and Lyndsay and Molly were like talking about a pizza shop haveing the sexaronni as their special today and yeah. it was wicked cool.
yeah man i think thats all i can say right now.
im a bit anxious.... is that how you spell it... i dunno.
but yeah
peace out holmes.
~Wyn~
love always

ok Carebears tellin me to update.
so i will. anyway yeah
im over at Sams's house right now.
its pretty cool. we have to stay upstairs cuz his parents are having a new years eve\newwyears party i think. Sam says yeah and im not invited.
HIS OWN PARENTS FORBID HIM FROM THE PARTY. you know what that means? DRUNKEN SSHHHHHHMASHED PARTY
yeah
anyway
this is pretty boring for Sam io bet so imn gonna go and yeah
happy new years everyone.
dont make any resolutions.
they will suck and never happen. unless that resolution includes me having a good life.
yeah

i dont know
love you always

~Wyn~




<3

IIIIII have been sick for a while and im just gettin better so III will have fun before the breaks over. in the mean time i want to tell you a little story about what happened while the break had started.
ok
so i got this present from Emily, *sea-monkeys* and i had done everything like put the water purifier in and let it sit for 24 hours befor you put in the sea-monkeys, put them in after and wait a few. SO after i put them in i waited and waited and waited. NOTHING HAPPENED
SO what i did was i got really bummed out and called one of my friends, Izzy. she laughed at me and had a great time. THEN i was looking in the tank to see if they were alive. they werent. so i opened up the top and was stirrin it to see if that helped. BUT WHEN i was stirring it in, *i had been eating my GingerBREAD house at the time, which if you saw, had ALOT of pixie stix like
ALOT ALOT. maybe about 17 or 18 stix. so i had just put the powder in my mouth, and it hadnt all like dissolved yet, and i leaned over to look down in it. and then, GUESS WHAT,
*FWOOSH*
*gasp*

The PIXIE STIX FELL
INTO
THE
TANK.
SO I panic..-ed paniced...hmm panicked? paniked? ANYWAY
SO THEN I WAS FREAKIN OUT ON THE PHONE TALKIN ABOUT HOW I HAD JUST SPILT MEHUSHH MEH MAUH MAGR MERG AHHHH
AHHH
SO THEN, i got off the phone with Izzy and just was like
"OH, OK. Im just gonna stir it up and put it on my desk."
so the next few days i forgot allll about them and my little tragedy.
BUT THEN OK
A FEW DAYS LATER, MOLLY CALLED ME.
( m is molly, w is yeah you get it.) WE TALKED FOR A WHILE. and then she sorta shyly asked me,
M"hey Wynn?"
W"yes?"
M" are your seamonkeys alive?"
I WAS LIKE, "NO THEY ARENT!!!!" "I TOTALLY FORGOT ABOUT THEM!"
M"mine arent either."
W"hmmm maybe they just like, DONT WORK..."
M"yeah"
W" oh but i uhhh kinda had an accident with them."
M" like what?"
W"well i kinda spilt pixie stix into them."
*i forget how the rest of the convo goes.*
OK
so its later and we got off the pohone and i went to sleep and yeah.
ok so then a few days passed.
THEN I CALLED MOLLY, just cuz i was wanting to talk to her.
so i was like, HEY
and she was like,
"HEY!"
so we talked for a while yeah yeah mhmhmhmhmhm yadda yadda. THEN I WAS LIKE
Hey molly, are you monkeys alive? she was like,
yeah they are. and im like mine arent ei- wait their alive?
yeah
oh
mine arent.
HEY WAIT
MINE AAAARE ALIVE!!!!!
WOW
I BET THEY LIKE
HAVE SOME COOL THINGY ABOUT THEM CUZ THEY GREW WITH PIXIE STIX IN THE WATER.
then we talked about how she got heelies and stuff
and then about her bunny.
r.i.p.
and yeah then i forget, BUT IT WAS SO COOL.
MY SEA MONKEYS, WHICH ARE ACTUALLY MONKEYS OF SEA, HAD CAME ALIVE.
WITH
THE
PIXIE
STIX
DISSOLVED INTO THE WATER!!!
i was so happy about that so i fed them and stuff.
yeah
that was such a cool story.
TRUE STORY TRUE STORY

i think that EVERYONE should have seamonkeys.
i have to thank Izzy for being on the phone with me and helping me un-loose my mind over it.
Molly for being my sea monkey companion and helping me with what i should do. also cuz if she hadnt asked me if they were alive, they probably wouldnt be.
and i have to thank EMILY for giving me them in the first place.
thank you all for being so damn spiffy.
<3 always,
~Wyn~

FIVE THINGS ABOUT MYSELF

1.i usually need consant re-asuring, and i need people to make decisions for me. sometimes i can handle it though

2. i have an attatchment disorder. i dont really get attatched to people that easily but when i do i have a very hard time getting unattatched. emotionally. not physically

3. i have anger issues.

4. i can get really jealous really easy.

5. i usually dont like change, and im afraid of the future for me.

hmm yayy ok lets seeeeeee. heheheheheheh*evil eyes*
I TAG:
wow alot of people have been tagged. i hope its ok that i second people.
ok
Carebear
Emma
Jill
Krystyna
Molly
i was gonna do Ethan but i dont think he still updates. hes too much of a cool kid to do that

( i think Jill made this )